Rihanna’s golden circle.

I had been planning this summer for a year now, planning to be in Europe for ten weeks and to be a minimum of 10 degrees cooler than the coldest summer day in Houston. I bought one round trip ticket six weeks before I left and figured the rest of the details as I encountered them. My intention was to stage at Mirabelle (Copenhagen, Denmark) and De Superette (Gent, Belgium). In the end, I breathed the air of six different countries and eleven villages/cities and laughed a hell of a lot.

In preparation for this trip, I had been trying to undo some of the things I have been far too comfortable with, things that could lead to unpliability: being OCD about frivolous things, being too type A, showering daily, exercising like I was still an athlete, using exhaustion as a measure of success, having an opinion about things I know far too little about, traveling only to cross things off a list. I began to question why I did things, if my habits were good for me, why some things were necessary habits–basically everything. I tried to break any cycle I could visibly discover so that I could free myself to be perfectly irregular.

I still brush my teeth, wash my face, and drink out of my water bottle daily. In the quest of finding who I am and who I want to be, I could only hold onto these three habits.

My decisions in travel were based more on making memories and less about bragging about where I ate or saw. I slowed down a lot, sat in parks, took naps, and ate falafel or pizza multiple meals in a row. I read many books, went to the same places to get coffee or wine, became a regular, and tried to live like everywhere was my second home. This summer was strictly for me and no one else. It was a journey in finding me. 

When you leave life up to possibilities, sometimes you end up in Paris, in Rihanna’s Golden Circle.

One Comment

  1. This is lovely and it definitely resonates with me. I had the same approach when I moved here. Taking your foot off the gas pedal and approaching life with your feet on the ground, moving at a walkable pace, with wide-open eyes shows you as much about the things around you as it does about the things inside you. Europe is a perfect place to let yourself just “be”. So glad you were able to experience this. I don’t doubt that the perspective and peace that you discovered will shift your life a bit from here on. That’s something you can bring with you no matter where you roam. Bussi aus Salzburg! Come back soon! Xx



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